This week's Musings

Let's see....I have had a block this week on what to write about. I have had many emotions this week. The expected post from me on Mother's Day or the week following would most likely be about my mom and my missing her. The sense of loss is so random now that it has been 15 plus years since she died. As I have mentioned before, her absence is most often brought up by my children who are trying to figure out their world. For some reason, this past Sunday was more about me and my selfish nature than about her. Of course I thought of her and how I wish she were here to spend the weekend at my house and with my children running around her in the back yard. But, that isn't to be. Mark made lunch for me. It was a wonderful shrimp and crab pasta dish. He commented that it wasn't that great, but it really was. I think he sensed my disappointment in the day and thought it was over his lunch efforts. It wasn't. Mark secured a baby sitter that evening. We went to Books a Million, bought 3 magazines and a coffee and the two of us sat there reading - enjoying each other's company without much talking. We did this often when we were dating and before we had B. It was a fun evening. Rewind to the afternoon, I slept for 2.5 hours. For those of you who know me, know that I hate naps. I don't like the way I feel when I wake up. I also hate when others take a nap when I am awake doing things. Just unnerves me.

The week so far has had a feeling of summertime for me. I am not sure why. In my mind B is already done with school for the year and he isn't for another week. I don't know where the feeling of "done" comes from, but it is there. He will finish his kindergarten year next Friday. I can't believe he will be in first grade in 3 short months, but that is reality isn't it?

The weather here has been amazing and beautiful. Very low humidity and even cool mornings until today. It was more humid this morning, but there are storms on the horizon in the west coming our way today. So, by this afternoon we could have severe storms.

I am really rambling in this post today. Not sure how any of this ties together but it does. Oh and Mrs. B, if you are reading this, I am trying to talk to you on the phone!!!! I have an update on our trip in June but you will not be happy. BUT, on a brighter note, I need to find a weekend that works for both of us b/c I plan to come for a visit alone!! Call me!!!

WOW, what a strange post today...